ok well yesterday was interesting... there is so much to be told and hardly any time to tell it! lol i am leaving for CYX in 2 hours... am i packed yet? no where hear packed and ready. but i dont feel like it right now. i also need a shwoer... we'll see how that works out. as of now, i am sittin here, eating pancakes, ... and doin my best to put off getting ready.

ok so yesterday i woke up at betsy's dad's house n freaked out cuz i thought i was late... then realized i was EARLY and went back to sleep. woke up again on time, went to weights, realized they were cancelled, and went to chases'ss cuz i REALLY didnt wanna go home. so i actually got to see him yesterday... which was fun. then we went out to breffix... well i made him come to breffix with me cuz he didnt really wanna go. lol n alyssa n nicole came too along with sum other soccer people.

then, i went home n pretended to clean n such for a few hours. yea i didnt get crap done. i was sposed to pack yesterday and OBVIOUSLY that didnt happen. lol but i talked online to ashley and we decided to have sum ppl over to my house after work to talk a bit.

so i went to work, nothing exciting. came home n the girls came over. of course i am not gonna type in here exactly what happened or nething, cuz its really not anyone elses business. lol but we talked and hopefully got things started in the right direction.

then i went to the store with my mom n talked to her a little bit about everything. i cnt never tell her everything tho cuz i know it will go straight back to my daddy. so i had to edit a little bit. lol when we got back chase stopped by to see me n talk to me for a lil bit. that made me feel better.

then i came back inside n talked to patty d. i am so glad i have that boy cuz i confide in him so much! i love our talks because he always makes me feel so much better. not that other people didnt help make me feel better last night... but this isnt the first time patty has sat and listened to my problems. not many boys will actually listen when you pour your heart out to them bout girl drama n such... i'm lucky to have a few of em.

also i've decided i might be a boy... lol

so CYX... its not that i dont wanna go. it sounds like a lot of fun cuz i'll be with betzel n other cool kids. i just dont wanna leave. i feel like i'm leavin stuff unfinished and i will miss a lot in the 2 1/2 days i'm gone. plus ther are lots of rules at this place... lol.

o man brad paisly alcohol video just came on n brightened my morning. lol good times. good memories. that concert made me think bout how much everything has changed since last summer. how different things were at that concert night. so different from this one. lol i dont want all of that posted tho cuz its long, some is personal and some is not my information to let out. so if you wanna know bout it you can ask.

anyways, i guess i need to go pack for my trip n shower n such... but i dont wanna lol i am so bad at putting everything off at to the last possible minute!! i also have chores to finish! o man... so if you wanna talk to me while i'm gone, just git me up on the celly. 793*6175 luv y'all